So I find myself, at 4AM, on Wednesday morning unable to sleep and everyone I know is sleeping. As I lay in my bed watching TV, I am thinking about my future. While I do not know what lay ahead I will try and make it more positive. Lately everything has had a negative twist. Well I have accepted my faults and moved on, all on my own. I found that if you can't figure out your own problems then you are missing the vital portion of the solution. Identify the issue and solve it. Sure sometimes you cannot always do it yourself, but you know the problem and can ask for the help you need. Having people guess whats wrong with you just creates more problems because the people helping you have to guess what it is. My biggest problem is communication, I am working hard on this issue. Sometimes I don't know what words to say, or I speak before I think. This is my downfall, I say things that I don't mean. I mean as your speaking the first instinct is to say what is immediately on your mind. This is a mistake, you may have misinterpreted what was said, jumping to a conclusion and spitting out the first thing that pops into your head. This is hateful and sometimes a apology isn't fixing the issue. The deals already done, and the words have been said. This is not an easy thing to deal with and creates more long term issues. So long story short, think carefully before you open your mouth, you could make a terrible mistake. I know I have already made a few.
Enough with the lecture. I believe that was more of a lecture for me then anyone else, making a conscious effort to correct your own issues is the best answer. Stop and ask directions if you need help, but move forward on your own, having the issue dragged out of you won't work. Again moving on, I am gonna rest for a bit and then i have some errands to run later today. I will finish my weekly cleaning tomorrow and finish up the last load of laundry i have to do. Then I will probably chill out tomorrow night. Thursday, weather permitting, I will be headed to the lake again for a five mile walk. My niece said that she would go with me and we are teaching her puppy basic commands. My puppy, who is not really a puppy but an old dog loves the five mile trek. The walk wears out the puppy and my dog and relaxes me. I plan on walking two times a week now, once during the week and once on Sunday. This should help me lose some of my unwanted weight. I want to be in shape, yes I know round is a shape, but I want more. Well, I am gonna get outta here, glad I could share some of my thoughts and life processes with you. Also thank you for listening to me babble about my weekend. I am sure I will write more later, until then Sionara or Buh-Bye.......JP
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